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Ballet Exam yesterday!!! Woots! I am certain that I will pass(: Fingers crossed that I get honour or honour plus!!! And then the really stupid part, Mr.Tan signed the form for the Early Release and pathetically, he wrote ballet exam to bullet exam and the security guard didn't understand and didn't allow me to go out siah! HAWHAW. And when I got the form, I was like "Hey! It's pink! Let me bluff Ms.Naz that I got a pink form! " And then I told Ms.Naz she was :O and when I showed her at 9.10 for me to be released, she was like I thought you really got a pink form! LOL. Then I giggled all the way to the office until someone saw me :] Waited damn long for the 88 and then got wedding going on, this stupid person was filming, and I was inside!!! Then finally reached and the whole studio seriously stinked of hair-spray and my nose got mischievous, irritating itchy. Then Katherine's mum, Zelda's mum and teacher was like, wow, you can go and shoot a hair advertisement with you hair:) then teacher bunned up my hair and make-up for me and I was getting giggly with Katherine looking at me.
EXAM!!! - Nerve-racking! Just weird how the examiners would always praise us even when we make mistakes!

And for the unset thingy... here, I'll try to remember it.

1.Glissade Under ( Right Leg in Front )
2.Jete "Ordina" STUPID SPELLING.

3.Petite "Shaytare" STUPID SPELLING.
4.Petite "Assemble" STUPID SPELLING

And I remembered the Glissade Under! Cheers larh! Then the alignments I also remember! Whoo hoo! I did myself proud! And I smiled all through the solo dance looking like a freak:D and then had trouble breathing after ~.~

Reached school and almost got booked for grooming. Messy uniform due to squashing it in my bag. Then hair with gel and make up on! :( luckily, I retrieved the pink form in time and I was saved!!! Vanessa the heroine saved Vanessa the victim(:

Today:Cheerleading

Freaking tired larh! And then thanks to my stupid ideal of dieting, I got gastric and switched off. Morning was damn funny. Me, Eunice, Emily and Cythina had to get the freaking heavy mattress, skirt, pom-pom down to the dance studio and then we had to drag the mattress to the stairs and kick it down the stairs and suddenly Mr.Chang appeared while we were in the middle of a huge laugh and breathless. Darning stupid. Order pizza and then ate inside the studio then Mr.Fan came and we were omgosh. Lucky no bookings(: and he said 10 mins to clear out, and he took 30 mins to appear. Then since we got no business to be in school, go void deck lorh and the school still never close and Emily and Jolene were effing pissed off by Mr.Fan. I was quite reluctant to do the shaking step and the showing the butt step and then everyone was like, please lah, driving me onto the verge of tears. Then I mind my own business go talk on the phone with Ruien , like I don't quite fit in, because I don't talk and she said like why shoudn't I suicide and tears just rolled down. And Emily was like omgosh! And gave me a hug -.-


That day:Friday Night

( I simply just post the conversation )

REENs <3 (: says:
i dun wan u to suicide
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
why?
REENs <3 (: says:
i have no choice
REENs <3 (: says:
sorry
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
huh?
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
i also nvr say i want suicide lerh.
REENs <3 (: says:
issit?
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
oi! u duNoE my plan marh?
REENs <3 (: says:
no eh?
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
LoL...
REENs <3 (: says:
not suiciding
REENs <3 (: says:
?
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
shit. i haven posted. LoL.
REENs <3 (: says:
post i wanna see
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
lazy
REENs <3 (: says:
lucky u say today i almost going to tell counsellor to stop u from suiciding eh
REENs <3 (: says:
cos i dun wan lose u
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
can i request for something?
REENs <3 (: says:
wad?
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
er. i very pasieh to say
REENs <3 (: says:
nvm feel free to ask
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
um. can i get a hug from u tomorrow?
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
i so touched by what u say siah
REENs <3 (: says:
sure!
REENs <3 (: says:

The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
u make me cry.
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
so many people care! even yiying
REENs <3 (: says:
hehe
REENs <3 (: says:
see so many care u, so u suicide, u haven suicide i kill u ar
REENs <3 (: says:
lucky u tell me, almost i gonna tell mr ah bian/ counsellor, lucky uh u
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
LOl
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
that day i already give up dying lerh.
REENs <3 (: says:
heng sia
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
after yiying said something very toching
REENs <3 (: says:
wad she say
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
she say she is very disapointed in herself for Not stopping me and she will live in guilt
REENs <3 (: says:
ya i ask her how to stop u from suiciding she told me she will be guilty is she could not stop u as a freb
REENs <3 (: says:
fren*
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
she really said that?
REENs <3 (: says:
yap
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
i didnt kNow she cared so much
REENs <3 (: says:
ya
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
eh, why u all talk aLso will talk about me?
REENs <3 (: says:
because suicide is a very serious matter
REENs <3 (: says:
u die, walao i will like feel weird
REENs <3 (: says:
suddenly u gone missing.
REENs <3 (: says:
miss ur smile, ur tallfuness(singlish lol.)
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
wait. can u tell me the whole story of u and yiying talking about me?
REENs <3 (: says:
ok u wait ar
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
kkay. i just so curious
REENs <3 (: sends:
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The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
the first part so confusing,
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
is u or yiying!
REENs <3 (: says:
er most is me
REENs <3 (: says:
but the guilty part is yiying
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
OK. i kNow how lerh
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
i go sms her, tell her
REENs <3 (: says:
she say she will be damn guilty part
REENs <3 (: says:
ok
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
u al make me wana cry
REENs <3 (: says:
cry, later too much water go shee shee
REENs <3 (: says:
hahah
REENs <3 (: says:
today u nv go swimming ar
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
i got MC
REENs <3 (: says:
ic lucky u nv go u know y?
REENs <3 (: says:
today swim 4laps backstoke, 4laps side stoke, 8laps frontsrokes
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
can u sms yiying?
REENs <3 (: says:
sms her say wad
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
i da xiao ji hua
REENs <3 (: says:
huh?!
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
Means..
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
tell her i dun want to suicide lerh
REENs <3 (: says:
ok
REENs <3 (: says:
VL
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
huh?
REENs <3 (: says:
VL= vanessa leong
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
haha
REENs <3 (: says:
hahahas
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
when she reply tell me
REENs <3 (: says:
ok walao
REENs <3 (: says:
i go type suicibing
REENs <3 (: says:
send le
REENs <3 (: says:
wait for her reply
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
u send to me@
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
!!!
REENs <3 (: says:
. did i ?
REENs <3 (: says:
OMG
REENs <3 (: says:
i go check
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
OMG!!!
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
lucky u nvr send to other strangers.phew.
REENs <3 (: says:
ya
REENs <3 (: says:
i press to fast then i think accidentally press urs
REENs <3 (: says:
wth my DNT homework haven do and i left it in the school!!!
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
see what yiying reply Lorh...
REENs <3 (: says:
ok\
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
i really feel like hugging everyOne that never Loosed hoped in me
REENs <3 (: says:
ya lo
REENs <3 (: says:
u ar
REENs <3 (: says:
i put tomato on ur head ar
REENs <3 (: says:
lit u get hwo much
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
16.5
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
haha. i dare Not hug yiying Larh.
REENs <3 (: says:
ic
REENs <3 (: says:
hahaha
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
too
REENs <3 (: says:

The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
but i seriously didnt kNow yiying would care so much
REENs <3 (: says:
icicic
REENs <3 (: says:
hey i afk ar i go eat
REENs <3 (: says:
hungry
REENs <3 (: says:

The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
okay
REENs <3 (: says:
i tink i have to off9 now
REENs <3 (: says:
byebeys
REENs <3 (: says:
cyas TMR!
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
sms me when yiying reply
REENs <3 (: says:
ok!
The scars in my heart will never heal, just like the scars on my wrist. S.H.E WILL NOT DISBAND!!! says:
u will see me, i promise
REENs <3 (: says:
ok

Then while I really cried! I was so touched! I looked back at all the messages and so many people actually cared. Then I decided to gave up suiciding. Was it true? And I sms-ed Yiying myself and she was like:

Yep? That's really good. Just be brave and face things, theres will always be support from those around you. You can always look for an alternative hobby alright. It's okay, most importantly, you choose to live it the right way. You will definitely have the courage. I'm sure we're al glad you choose to live confidently again. Yep, good job Vanessa!:)

:( :( :( :( :(

I have no mood to blog already.

Days to Cheer leading competition:6

Days to God-Sis Wedding:7

Days to ( ... ):12

Listening to:你是我所有的回忆 by Calvin from Fahrenheit

Feelings:Screwed up by you know what.

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